& &. t h e y. s a y . . . .

they say i'm weird....
&& trust me, they have no idea..
they say i'm odd..
just wait til they see..
you know..
they say that i'm different..
and i know i am..
&& they say that i'm a misfit..
well, what's NOT a misfit??
..they say that i'll never make it..
and oh, i'll make it all right..
they're waiting on me to fail..
watch me succeed..
they say that i'm just going to fall into the statistics...
biotch, i'll create a new statistic.. && beat em all..
&& they say that i'm not going to be anything...
.. i'll be an example for you.. everytime you look up..
hahahaha..
they say i'm weird..
&& well.. quite frankly, i don't give a fcuk.. cuz, i take weird as a compliment, biotch.

s t r e s s. l e a v e. m e. a l o n e...... n o w.

so,
i just learned that im not going to be able to go to houston..
because of THEIR trip to las vegas..
.....okay...
its okay..
i'll have my own drake concert lol
play his cd LOUD in my house..
have a bunch of people over..
smoke the hookah hahaha
and we'll party it up like only we know how to do..

as for the stress bit...
you need a reliever, go workout and run for an hour and a bit..
it does amazing things :]
haha

okay... now im gonna stop procrastinating..
i have a sociology test tomorrow.
OMG
hahaha luckily if it doesnt go well, it wont hurt my grade..
hahaha
just because i waited til the last minute to study...
so back to the books i go!!!
...♥

i.hate.to.admit.it.. but.i.do.need.you...

i need my friend.
i need my weakness.
i need my heart.
i need that huge part of me back.
....
where are you?..
i know you havent "gone" anywhere,
but you're so far away..
&& i havent been able to find you lately..
come back..
dont push me away..
dont pull away..
please dont try to replace me, although you say you can't
............i miss you...
....a lot...
please find your way back... soon...
cuz im a bit in over my head right now..
and im at a bad point in my life..
you've always been the one to help to put me back together when im crumbling to the ground..
always been the one to pull me out of the water..to help me swim.., when im in over my head.. when im drowning..
... im trying to do it on my own right now, cuz i can't find you..
..&& its the hardest thing i've ever done..
.............i miss you......
......a lot...
..&& i know it often goes unspoken ...
...but, coming from the bottom of my heart..
i do need you..
...♥

i.can.sleep.when.im.dead.

so obviously i should be sleeping right now, yeah?
oh well...
im on my insomniac status..
there's too much on my mind..
&& to relieve stress, i've been just listening to music, and writing poetry..
i would like to play my violin or something, cuz it would help take my mind away from reality,
but unfortunately, im the only nocturnal person in this house..
anyway..
it started snowing again tonight... && quite frankly, its so pretty, but i hate it
... you know i sound really mean right now..
&& i promise im not..
:]
im actually real nice n down to earth if you get to know me a little bit..
....i dare you to .....
..haha .
you might actually find that i'm someone worth knowing... just the same that i find in others too
:]
k...
my neck and back hurt, so im gonna stop wit this computer thing n try and go to sleep..
night to anyone reading ...
...or morning haha
...♥

d i s a p p o i n t m e n t.

i am really really really really
disappointed in some people right now..
two people.
and one of them is me.
...how sad is that?
okay. now back to school work and facebook.
...♥

"hey lo, tell that biotch her mama walks around in a chin strap and a bra.!!!"
HAHAHAHAHA
.... thanks mookie. hahahaha